loveletterbombs (2006)

something. // bright white jackets. // the bells. // california. // the one that got away. //
to tell you. // high school memory. // suffering so. // jw experiment. // p.s.

    the partial works of roscoe smith (in the works)

wow & flutter. // colors. // beloved. // summer spell. // battle of eliyahu. // drop dead gorgeous.

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 something

look to the sky find the words
ask the stars for the future
what will be i need to know right now
what is written on the next page
the next page

there in the dark in the lights amidst the black
where we can’t go
is there a sign that we can’t read
is it a code we don’t know
i want to believe

i want to believe that there is something more than what i see
for all of these things to lead to something so much bigger than me

back in the everyday where we struggle
just to stay out of the red
why are we killing ourselves for each other
when it feels like we’re already dead
and what can bring us back again

i want to believe that there is something more than what i see
for all of these things to lead to something so much bigger

because we need to know that we’re not the only ones
we need to know we’re not alone
not alone
we’re not alone

i want to believe that there is something more than what i see
for all of these things to lead to something so much bigger

i want to believe that there is something more than what i see
i want to believe it’s bigger

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 bright white jackets

they’ve called the doctors
today’s the day
i’ve lost it finally
and they’re putting me away

i’m sure i won’t be quite the same
so before i go
i wanted
oh i wanted you to know

that a million men in their bright white jackets
could never erase you from my mind
but when they bring me back to you
and tell you that i’m shiny new
the girl that you see may not be me
behind these eyes anymore

i’ve never loved another
as i’ve loved you and do still
but i wonder when they’re through with me
i wonder if i will

so remember things i’ve said to you
and say them back to me
and maybe you can rescue me
from lunacy

so let million men in their bright white jackets
try to erase you from my mind
but when they bring me back to you
and tell you that i’m shiny new
the girl that you see may not be me
behind theses eyes anymore

they’re making me they’re making me
take these awful pills
assuring me they’re curing me
of all my evil ills

they say they’re saving me they’re saving me
so they’ll have me think
i was fine before they got to me
but now i’m on the brink of utter madness

they’ve called the doctors
today’s the day
i’ve lost it finally
and they’re putting me away

they tried to steal my thoughts
and all my memories of you
but i clung tight to them
because i always knew

that a million men in their bright white jackets
could never erase you from my mind
but when they bring me back to you
and tell you that i’m shiny new
the girl that you see may not be me

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 the bells

i heard the bells in my head
the second i saw you
and against my better judgment
i began to adore you
and i haven’t stopped since
and i’m gonna make you know it

i’m gonna knock til i get in
and i’m on you like a tattoo
just like the ink on your skin
i’ll work my way in
and write my name all over your heart
because you are mine
and you’ll wear my mark

don’t you see the way your hand fits so perfectly with mine
we were made to stand together by some great unknown design
for now and all of time you will be mine

i heard the bells in my head
the minute i met you
and in my best interest
i tried to ignore you i tried to forget you
but you just won’t let it be
so i’m stuck with you
and you’re stuck with me

don’t you see the way your hand fits so perfectly with mine
we were made to stand together by some great unknown design
for now and all of time you will be mine

and when the rains come
i will be the shelter you hide under
it’s no wonder we were made for one another

you’re the reason
i persist in my existence
i insist i’m the miss you’ve been missing mister

i heard the bells in my head
the second i saw you
and against my better judgment
i began to adore you
and i haven’t stopped since
and i’m gonna make you know it

i’m gonna knock til i get in
and i’m on you like a tattoo
just like the ink on your skin
i’ll work my way in
and write my name all over your heart
don’t you see the way your hand fits so perfectly with mine
we were made to stand together by some great unknown design
for now and all of time you will be mine

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 california

all of these things i wanted for you
you set out to find them and i hope that you do
but all that i hope for you is all that i fear

the thought of you leaving plays out in my head
will you really do it or turn back instead
when you realize that all that you love is right here

you’re fighting the feeling
and the voice that keeps calling for you
what will it be me or california

your eyes are not laughing now i know it’s no joke
you’ve lost something in you since the last time we spoke
it’s the thing i held onto the thing that i loved you for

and now that i see it as it falls from your eyes
i just let it drop i know now i realize
that it is not mine you are not mine anymore

and you say to me don’t tell me i didn’t warn you
winter just isn’t me and i’m leaving for california

you have to go you have to go
i hear it in your voice listen as it echoes
you have to go you have to go
i hear it in your voice listen as it echoes
stop telling me start walking away

and did you expect me to curl up and die
while you turned a promise into a lie
did it surprise you how easily i let you go

it just wasn’t meant it must have been fate
you realized but a second too late
that life without me was a life you just didn’t want to know

then the words that i wished for darling i’m sending for you
so get your ass on a plane and i’ll see you in california
the words that i wished for darling i’m sending for you
so get your ass on a plane and i’ll see you in california

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 the one that got away

i will always be here
you’ve got me in chains
you’ll never let me be
you always will remain
in the face of another

you know what you’ve done
you know very well
you set a trap for me
and baby i fell
for the love of you lover

so don’t turn around
because there’s nothing left to say
and i’ll let you be
the one that got away

and you can cut that string
and we can quit these games we play
and i’ll let you be
the one that got away

i should have known better
what a fool to be so blind
and now all i’ve got here
is the mess you left behind
and the memory of a promise gone bad

now all the books have been read
and the case has been closed
and all fingers point to you
and everybody knows
so how’s it feel to be the one who’s been had

so don’t turn around
because there’s nothing left to say
and i’ll let you be the one that got away
and you can cut that string
and we can quit these games we play
and i’ll let you be the one that got away
the moment i turn around
you’ll want me back right away
and i’ll always be
the one that got away

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 to tell you

with our good-bye
somewhat shy
of definition

and your last words
still unheard
though i listen

but all these dreams
won’t wait for me
so i hold you

here in my heart
and there you are
when i need you

and if my last breath soon escapes me
and takes me to my next destination
rest assured when it leaves my lips
it will whisper your name
i have to tell you this
i have to tell you

all of these gifts
i gave with
none in return

still this girl’s not through
chasing you
when will i learn

to just set you free
let this be
what it turns into

and hope that still there’ll be
room for me
somewhere in you

and if my last breath soon escapes me
and takes me to my next destination
rest assured when it leaves my lips
it will whisper your name
i have to tell you this
i have to tell you this
my heart is bottomless
and i have to tell you

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 high school memory

tomorrow’s graduation day
and after summer we’ll be worlds away
but will your love still be for me
or will i just be another high school memory

and in september will you be
a big-shot college jock and forget all about little old me
i know our love was meant to be
so don’t let our love become a high school memory

i remember the prom and the ball
and all of the things we’ve done
don’t let these memories fade
and let me be your only one

this night will fade into tomorrow’s dreams
what will the future hold for you and me
will our love die or will you always love me
then together we’ll share our high school memory
so don’t let our love become a high school memory

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 suffering so

dressed to perfection with no one to impress
they’ve all stopped watching your show of selfishness
but the world will turn still a shock to you i’m sure
with all you offer how could they possibly ignore you
they used to adore you

now life is awful
how do you keep on breathing
it’s just unbearable
how do you stand to go on suffering so
when no one could know
how hard it must be to be you

it’s sad but no one cares there’ll be no intervention
it’s clear you’re starving but only for attention
how could you help it
it could never be your fault
beauty and money put you in this catapult
into that pretty famous girls’ cult

now life is awful
how do you keep on breathing
it’s just unbearable
how do you stand to go on suffering so
when no one could know
how hard it must be to be you

with all those lights in your face
your image all over the place
you poor thing
we’d love to stay
and dry your sobs
but we’ve all got lives
we’ve all got jobs
but good for you
you proved us wrong
no one thought you’d last even this long

now life is awful
how do you do it
it’s just unbearable
how do you stand to go on suffering so
when no one could know
how hard it must be to be a p princess
locked up in a fortress
but if you let your hair down
you might see what life is like for us here
on the ground

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 jw experiment

we should all be perfect like you
sometimes it just doesn’t pay to tell you the truth
you thought that i was handing you your head
so you turn around and hand me mine instead

well take a step back and see where you’re at
because this is the part where i don’t come back

because i have tried
but all your promises left me dead inside
and you the liar
all that you do is leave me sick and tired

my work is done i’ve done all i can
i’m not wasting my time trying to make you a better man
i’m not trying to break down your walls
because a good man don’t need no work at all

you take what you want and you’ve taken too much
and even that’ll never be enough

because i have tried
but it’s so damn hard to keep you satisfied
and you the liar
all that you do is leave me sick and tired

darling you’re like a virus
eating away at all of the feeling inside us
like an anchor weighing me down
but i’m gonna get you off my ass yet
i’ll be damned if i’m gonna drown

because i have tried
but all your promises left me dead inside
and you the liar
all that you do is leave me sick and tired

because i have tried
but it’s so damn hard to keep you satisfied
and you the liar
all that you do is leave me sick and tired

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 ps

oh my love
wildflower precious dove
where have you flown
how could you leave me all alone

i miss you for heaven’s sake
but i will find you no matter how long it takes

oh my love oh my love
come back to me
because you belong to me

oh my dear
the things i’d do just to hold you near
you were my one possession
but i think it kind of turned into an obsession

i want you to know
that i love you still
but if i can’t have you then i guarantee no one will

oh my love oh my love
come back to me
because you belong to me
and i never set you free

no matter where you hide away
you know i’m gonna find you some day
and then i’m gonna make you pay
because this time we’re doing things my way

oh baby i think maybe i’ve gone crazy
do i love you do i hate you
do i find you and mutilate you
this is a sick mind
are you scared of what you will find

well you should be because if i were you
i would be scared too

oh my love oh my love
come back to me
oh my love

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 wow and flutter

i could take a great big bite out of you
when i get my cake i like to eat i like to eat it too
and can i help myself if i find you simply delicious?

now i'm like the big the big, bad wolf at your door
my mouth is wide open, ready to explore
and i'm not hiding the fact that i'm out for blood
baby, i'm vicious

don't hate a girl because she knows
all the ways to get beneath your clothes
cause you played those games, down to the letter
you're just mad cause i play them better

i need to get my sound
so i'm gonna lay you down
i'm gonna spin you around
and play you like a record

i could take a great big bite out of you
when i get my cake i like to eat i like to eat it too
and can i help myself if i find you simply delicious?

now i'm like the big the big, bad wolf at your door
my mouth is wide open, ready to explore
and i'm not hiding the fact that i'm out for blood
baby, i'm vicious

don't hate a girl because she knows
all the ways to get beneath your clothes
cause you played those games, down to the letter
you're just mad cause i play them better

i need to get my sound
so i'm gonna lay you down
i'm gonna spin you around
and play you like a record

i need to get my sound
and i need to get it now
i'm gonna spin you around
and play you like a record

you're spinning me right around,
baby you're spinning me right around,
and round and round
you're spinning me right around,
baby you're spinning me right around,
and round and round
you're spinning me right around,
baby you're spinning me right round,
and round and round
you're spinning me right around,
baby you're spinning me right around,
and round and round
but whose spinning who now?

i need to get my sound
so i'm gonna lay you down
i'm gonna spin you around
and play you like a record

i need to get my sound
and i need to get it now
i'm gonna spin you around
and play you like a record

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 colors

you've been far away from me
another land across the sea
all this time my heart's been breaking
just waiting round and aching

for a letter or a telegram
telling me how sweet i am
swear your hear will never roam
so til you come back home

i'll wear your colors my dear
until you're standing right here
next to the one who adores you
whose heart is beating for you
like a lighthouse guides a shipwrecked sailor safely from the sea
i'll wear your colors til you come back home to me

i'm hoping you return the glow
i'm just making sure you know
that no matter how, no matter when
you come back to me

you'll realize this love is strong
as it has been all along
for miles and miles can't come between
the kind of love we've seen

i'll wear your colors my dear
until you're standing right here
next to the one who adores you
whose heart is beating for you
like a lighthouse guides a shipwrecked sailor safely from the sea
i'll wear your colors til you come back home to me

i'll wear your colors my dear
until you're standing right here
next to the one who adores you
whose heart is beating for you
like a lighthouse guides a shipwrecked sailor safely from the sea
i'll wear your colors til you come back home to me

i'll wear you colors til you come back home to me

i'll wear you colors til you come back home to me

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 beloved

i know its over
my heart will never know another lover
we two shall never share another breath
my will has faded
this longing it's an unrelenting torture
oh mercy take me know to my beloved

you were the thrill that stilled my beating heart baby
you are the one i'll dream the most
but if i cannot have the real thing
i'll gladly settle for your ghost

and you can haunt these halls
all you want
and if i ever leave
i will take you with me

da da...

this thing that beats
is the one thing that keeps us apart
well they say to say goodbye
but id surely rather die
from my broken heart

you were the thrill
that stilled my beating heart baby
you are the one i'll dream the most
but if i cannot have the real thing
i'll gladly settle for you ghost
i'll gladly settle for you ghost

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 summer spell

through the ice and swell
casting spells over a telephone line
in my ear
telling secrets that i'll take to my grave

falling one by one
til the sun came up to save us from ourselves
for the day
then the light would leave
and night would fall again

all these words between us now
only words between us now
all these words between us now
only words forever now

we will meet on a sunlit street
the skies will tell us everything
oh the things we'll know when the cold winds go
and summer comes again

damn the river tom
for the hours we wasted dreaming of the things
we'd never be and never see
but always hope for in ourselves
every doubt every promise we would never carry out
all these words between us now
only words between us now
all these words between us now
only words forever now

we will meet on a sunlit street
the skies will tell us everything
oh the things we'll know when the cold winds go
and summer comes again
when summer comes again

we fought to be the last ones to fall asleep
and i've been awake all of this time
don't you remember how we swore
we'd never let this town take us alive?

all these words between us now
only words between us now
all these words between us now
only words forever now

we will meet on a sunlit street
the skies will tell us everything
oh the things we'll know when the cold winds go
and summer comes again
when summer comes again
when summer comes again

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 battle of eliyahu

you never know what you've got
until you chase it away
and you knew it all along
but you'd like to let me think that i'm right
so you can prove me dead wrong

and i was busy trying to think of something clever to say
by the time the words hit my tongue
you had yourself a brilliant idea
to take your heart and run

and i know that i'm nearly impossible
but i'll tell you what i'll tell you what honey
no other girl in this whole wide world
is gonna give you this kind of
run for your money

and in the battle for your heart
i wanna know who you've been rooting for all of this time
cause babe i've been trying to win it
but i've got a feeling i'm no longer in it
but here i am down on the floor
begging for just one, just one, just one more
go around on the minute hand
cause i'm still in it man

you never know how good it was
til it gets bad
when it all went south
i wished that i could turn it all back
and never open my mouth

and i know that i'm nearly impossible
but i'll tell you what i'll tell you what honey
no other girl in this whole wide world
is gonna give you this kind of
run for your money

and in the battle for your heart
i wanna know who you've been rooting for all of this time
cause babe i've been trying to win it
but i've got a feeling i'm no longer in it
but here i am down on the floor
begging for just one, just one, just one more
go around on the minute hand
cause i'm still in it man

you sure know how to make a girl work for her food
well i'm guessing you've realized you like me
a little bit more than you think you should
but don't expect me to write or call you
after all you made me do
when all the work in the world
ain't enough for a girl like me to have a boy like you

you never know what you've got
until you chase it away

and in the battle for your heart
i wanna know who you've been rooting for all of this time
cause babe i've been trying to win it
but i've got a feeling i'm no longer in it
but here i am down on the floor
begging for just one, just one, just one more
go around on the minute hand
cause i'm still in it man
oh i sure am
so how bout one more round on the minute hand
cause i'm still in it man

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 drop dead gorgeous

i'm a sucker for a pretty face
and you're as pretty as they come
so what if the conversation
leaves me absolutely numb?

oh you're so enchanting
when your mouth is closed
and with a mouth like that
who needs politics and prose

now i'm staring into those vacant eyes
trying to figure out if you've
understood a single word that i've said
is there anything going on in that pretty little head?
cause if you're just drop dead gorgeous
you should just drop dead

a face that could launch a thousand ships
a smile so bright it could stop a train
won't do you no good if you can't
back it all up with the brains

now i'm staring into those vacant eyes
trying to figure out if you've
understood a single word that i've said
is there anything going on in that pretty little head?
cause if you're just drop dead gorgeous
you should just drop dead

baby don't change on account of me
cause i like em pretty but i need em quick and witty
and if that's the best of ya, if there and nothing to the rest of ya
a pretty face is all you'll ever be to me

and i'm staring into those vacant eyes
trying to figure out if you've
understood a single word that i've said
is there anything going on in that pretty little head?
cause if you're just drop dead gorgeous
you should just drop dead

if you're just drop dead gorgeous
you should just drop dead

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